10/28/24

desire=screwdriver

there is absolutely no reason why i shouldn't live my life the way i desire to. i act like desire is bad but i am here because i desired to be. i'm a human and i desire to live. i am going to live. i am living. relaxing is real and needed, but not in the form of intake with no give, because when i'm doing that most of the time it feels like a waste of my desire.

i desire to be a massage therapist, and i'm going to do it. i desire to marry lanie and have children of light, i'm going to do it. i desire to make visions in my head reality with moving pictures, i am doing that. i desire to wake up from a fall drive home and dream of what a wall may have seen in all its life in Spyro, i have done that. and especially recently something has come to be very clear. apparently i desire to make music and i didnt really know that till i woke up one day and saw how much time i was spending on it. chatterax- what makes you, you. believe me im trying to find out today.