7/22/25

sawyer

it has been a while. i graduate sunday. damn. 3 clinics left. wow. life is happening. looking back a few months the writing in this notebook has been fried like am i okay lol. i think the nathan situation really just wigged me out and it pushed me away from being creative and being with friends and that was wicked. especially the creative outlet that shit is my therapy. things got a lot clearer after joining doshin. just reading back is always funny because every month i feel so different. so much change. its awesome.

i was skating at this random ass church this evening while procrastinating my pathology final that's tomorrow and i got this feeling on my head of like,, how funny it was to not be doing the thing that connects me to everyone and everything and it was just very nice to know that for some reason. the words fell short in my head but the feeling was like, this is always the case, do what you know is the path from what the little voice says,,, but the guy is really fucking quiet so you got to sit still to listen well. but i’m always wanting to go dogs go man.

on the drive home i got this past epiphany/last week what the hell moment of like: truth is a pile of bullshit. to say you know the truth is to close your mind from all of the other things. damn, i hope i never know the truth. i hope i believe everything i'm told at least a little bit, i have found that it's really fun. “really? tell me more.” i hope i always say: “man what the hell was that guy on about” and it was just me three months ago.

change, change my mind

put it there fido